A State of Worry
Many of you have noticed my new icon that is displayed to the right in the form of a blue and white hamsa with doves and stars of David insides the fingers. A hamsa translated as a hand of God, and known as a symbol of protection from evil or bad. Point of fact, I wear one all the time around my neck, having two or three different ones, and have these powerful symbols scattered around my home. Most of the time, when balanced, and thinking correctly, the hamsa reminds me that it is not me who is in change of the world, nor that I have any power of people, places, things or how something turns out in the end.
If the complete truth be known, I worry quite a bit. My main worry is about my children, their well-being, and safety. If honest, however, it can be concluded that I worry about everything. For example, today I am worried about my daughter, about Israel, about whether I will finish my brief on time, about gaining weight, and the list goes on and on. It can on a given day be said that I live inside of fear. This is not a healthy state nor place, and it prevents me from enjoying the gifts of life as they are at any given moment. When my head is in a place of worry, I am not able to experience the beauty of any given unique moment for what it has to offer.
Yesterday, I spent most of the day worrying about my daughter and her health. I keep a journal, and told myself, that today, I would write about my feelings on my blog. My journal is called, Black Rats and White Rats, and I noticed that my last entry was April 8th., around the time that I had started to work on this blog. What does this mean? My journal is about my inner most feelings and issues, some which are shared in the blog world, and others not so much. There is not one entry about Bush, the state of the economy, the State of Israel, or penises. It made me see that some of the real stuff in life, that allows me to grow and sprout are not being written about. Consequently, I spanked myself (do not get too alarmed or excited) and said that for today, I would write about what I was truly feeling.
When I live inside of fear, I do not experience life as it is, but as I think it is. Most of the time, my thoughts are not even correct, and consequently, more often than not, many precious moments of each and every day are wasted, because of the thinking inside of my head.
For today, I am going to make every effort to let go of worry. Letting go does not mean to stop caring, nor to give up, but to allow myself to learn from the natural consequences, and know that each and every outcome is truly outside of my power.
Thank you for your minds.
If the complete truth be known, I worry quite a bit. My main worry is about my children, their well-being, and safety. If honest, however, it can be concluded that I worry about everything. For example, today I am worried about my daughter, about Israel, about whether I will finish my brief on time, about gaining weight, and the list goes on and on. It can on a given day be said that I live inside of fear. This is not a healthy state nor place, and it prevents me from enjoying the gifts of life as they are at any given moment. When my head is in a place of worry, I am not able to experience the beauty of any given unique moment for what it has to offer.
Yesterday, I spent most of the day worrying about my daughter and her health. I keep a journal, and told myself, that today, I would write about my feelings on my blog. My journal is called, Black Rats and White Rats, and I noticed that my last entry was April 8th., around the time that I had started to work on this blog. What does this mean? My journal is about my inner most feelings and issues, some which are shared in the blog world, and others not so much. There is not one entry about Bush, the state of the economy, the State of Israel, or penises. It made me see that some of the real stuff in life, that allows me to grow and sprout are not being written about. Consequently, I spanked myself (do not get too alarmed or excited) and said that for today, I would write about what I was truly feeling.
When I live inside of fear, I do not experience life as it is, but as I think it is. Most of the time, my thoughts are not even correct, and consequently, more often than not, many precious moments of each and every day are wasted, because of the thinking inside of my head.
For today, I am going to make every effort to let go of worry. Letting go does not mean to stop caring, nor to give up, but to allow myself to learn from the natural consequences, and know that each and every outcome is truly outside of my power.
Thank you for your minds.
7 Comments:
Thank you, Doug.
I appreciate your kind words and take them to heart.
Worrying is not a good state for anyone, as it makes us live in a state of how we think the world should be rather than how it is.
This is one of my big issues that I work on all of the time.
Sometimes, it just rears its ugly head more often than not.
Be well.
you made me feel like i have company in this life ... although i do not wish to share a worrying state with anyone. i do not know why, but i worry constantly about everything (i have anxiety and panic a lot of the time if not most of the time). i miss a lot of things in life. i've missed the seasons, i miss the smells of outdoors, i miss doing things i love doing. if there is a way to "relax" and put these thoughts aside, i feel it would bring a good balance. it helps to know that not everything is in your control, but you already seem to know all this. hopefully, some of the worries and fears subside.
OK, Barbara, this is a propos of nothing but you might find this website stimulating (and Doug, actually): http://www.buzzflash.com/
In Hindi Hamsa translates as "Who am I", in return the Soham mantra translates as "I am That". Both are naturally occuring mantras corresponding with the inhalation and exhalation of the breath. Soham is also referred to as the name of God as it is naturally pronounced with each human breath. It is interesting that in Hebrew the same word refers to the Hand of God.
http://swamij.com/soham-mantra.htm
is a good site with further explanation.
Fear. I do the best I can to turn it over to God. I do not do it perfectly and at this point I cannot expect to do it perfectly, what is important is that I keep doing it and keep doing my best. It is those little parts that I insist on keeping my hands on that become the most painful.
Yes, it is the small steps that do count and make a difference in the quality and measure of our lives.
Elisa, I hope you have a peaceful day, and know that you are not living inside fear alone. Be well, and stay strong.
Glad I'm not the only one, but that doesn't help us much, does it!
Glad I'm not the only one, but that doesn't help us much, does it!
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